So guess what happened when I tried to come out and talk about my thoughts and fears, since this state is absolutely full of ignorant christian anti-LGBT groups, to my therapist?
She shot them ALL DOWN. She legit doesn't care that being gay/kinda bi??? is driving me insane. and at one point, she brought my grandma in, and AGREED with her anti-gay sentiments. And what's even more, she's utterly confused me about how I'm seeing the world. I don't even know if I'm hallucinating these threats or not, And now I'm wondering if this world is even real, and if I'm not having a nightmare half the time I'm awake?! And it doesn't help that violence, especially violence towards the mentally ill and LGBT persons is really high in this state. The idea of me having PTSD and Asperger's has been brought up. and ever since I told her I'm so depressed that I feel like there's no way out except dying, I'm under CONSTANT SUICIDE WATCH, which means I can't fap and I have even less privacy than before, and my therapist wants to, instead of gradually helping me out of my fear of people, wants to PUSH ME OUT THERE SO I CAN PANIC AND HAVE A GODDAMN HEART ATTACK
Also, guess who's not gonna have any alone time with Tod???
I guess this is what I get for trusting people. Not even fucking therapists can be trusted.